Every morning it’s the same routine. I wake up with just enough time to get ready and rush out the door. I spend about 2.5 to 3 hours a day commuting to work and back. I’ve been doing the same monotonous commute for about 3.5 years now, and it’s exhausting!
I’m getting tired of being in the rat race. I’d say I’m fairly ambitious but I no longer have a desire to climb the corporate ladder. This is probably why I left the private sector and work for a non-profit organization. I love my job but at the same time, there are many days when I wonder if this is how my life will be – the same routine day in and day out.
As you may know from my earlier posts, I’ve been reading The Alchemist. The main theme in this book is about fulfilling your “Personal Legend” or destiny by pursuing your dreams. My dream was never to become an accountant or to be chained to a desk for 8 hours a day and yet, here I am.
This new chapter of my life has got me thinking about what I really want to do. What is my Personal Legend? What would really make me feel fulfilled? When I was a kid, I wanted to be a writer or reporter travelling the world and telling stories. I never thought that was a dream worth pursuing because I always felt I had to choose a career that could provide financial stability. And, that’s exactly what I did.
In school, I actually studied psychology and business in my undergrad. However, upon graduation, I decided to pursue an accounting designation so that I could enter a profession which, I thought was a sensible, stable choice. It had nothing to do with whether it would make me happy but it just seemed to be the logical thing to do.
Now that I’m on this path of self-discovery, I’m realizing that the best parts of my day are all the activities that give me a creative outlet such as, blogging and dancing. It’s sad to think that if I didn’t take this time to reflect on my life, I would continue living like a zombie moving from one repetitive, stifling day filled with numbers and spreadsheets to the next. Now that I’ve started to reflect on what life really means to me, I don’t know how much longer I want to be working away analyzing financial reports.
Lessons for today: continue to follow my heart and seek out the people and activities that make me happy. Find a way out of the rat race!